babe

I wish today never happened, i wish i could wake up all over again and re-do everything. I wish i never called you and made you want me to call you. I wish we never fought as much as we fought. I can only wish so many things, but if i had one wish it would be to have no wishes at all. You never loved me, cared for me or missed me. Your a faker, a phony, a liar, a cheater and so many much more things i could name right about now. You fucked with my feelings, and knowing that that's all you wanted fucking kills me inside. SO fuck your feelings, all i ever wanted to do was make you happy with or without me. guess your without me now and you're doing fine, not like you show that your hurt or anything even though you pretend you are. Your just a poisioned apple that my mom told me about a billion times and i kept going in to bite it, and when i finally bit it.. i forever sleep now until my prince charming goes and kisses me upon my lips. Something you will never understand, something you will never do because you do not understand the meaning of love. You only understand the meaning of f u c k. Either " let's fuck" or " fuck you" to anything that moves. I know you could care less about me, and that's what hurts inside. But to grow up and mature, is to let the ones you once loved behind. You were the thing i most cared about. guess it's over now babe.
guess forever doesn't exist if were not together, even though your forever tattooed across my pretty little demented heart.
i do love you, as much as you hurt me. As much as you've thrown me around and broken me into two.. i do love you after all this. Always have.. always will.
xo