hey you, can i rip your head off?

" so kiss me like you did, my heart stop beating" - the used.
I had that lyric stuck in my head when we started kissing a million times. You still owe me a million more because of how many times you didn't kiss me when you were suppose too. If only we can fight like we do all the time, like we did yesterday. It took us five minutes to apologize and talk it out. Why do we have to be so stubborn when we are on the phone? or when were talking on the computer? Why do we fight and yell all the time? why can't we just work it out like were suppose to. I know we say we will do it all the time but it feels like we never do it..

So please kiss me like you do, because every time you do my heart does stop beating. It misses a beat because i feel like every time i look in your eyes i fall right back in love again. Not like i stop loving you i just love you even more when you look at me with those big brown eyes. You don't really know how much you mean to me and you don't really know how much i care. I may act like i don't but i really do. I can't stop caring and i don't think i will ever stop. Not like i am.. but anyways.
Whatever you do to me, i forgive but i will never forget. I can't really stand being in the same class with the girl who almost tore us apart. Who you almost let her tear us apart. I don't get it, i can't grasp the feeling anymore. Can i rip her head off? Please.. i think it will make me feel so much better knowing she has no head to talk to.

i need a hair cut..

i got a gold chain, i'm on cocaine

Nobody's going to break me or put me down anymore, i am so not putting up with everyone's shit. You talk shit about me behind my back, or i do so. Fuck you, your out of my life i don't need you. It's not like your going to be there for me when I'm on my death bed so fuck you and go have fun getting your ass fucking kicked by bitches who give a shit about what you say. TOODALOO motha fucka

your just another black cloud following me around, what's going to happen if my umbrella goes up? or the sun comes out?

howdy do da day

LAYER 1: ON THE OUTSIDE.
Name: Nicole
Birth Date: January 12
Current Location: Laval Quebec
Hair Color: dirty blond
Righty/Lefty: Righty

LAYER 2: ON THE INSIDE.
Your fear: Death
Your dream of the perfect date: just gazing at the stars.

LAYER 3: YESTERDAY, TODAY, TOMORROW.
Your thoughts first waking up: why the fuck did my alarm clock not go off
Your best physical feature: i really like my feet.
Your bed time: Whenever i want
Your most missed memory: last summer, when everything was better

LAYER 4: YOUR PICK.
Pepsi or Coke: Coke
McDonald’s or Burger King: McDonalds
Single or Group Dates: Either.
Adidas or Nike: Nike
Chocolate or Vanilla: vanilla
Cappuccino or Coffee: Coffee

LAYER 5: DO YOU.
Smoke: No
Cuss: Yes
Take showers: Daily almost
Have a crush: no
Like school: sometimes, depends
Believe in yourself: depends
Believe what goes around comes around: TRULY
Believe everything happens for a reason: yes.
Think you’re a health freak: i can be.

LAYER 6: IN THE PAST MONTH.
Gone to the mall: Yes, today.
Been on stage: no i have not
Eaten sushi: no i have not.
Been hurt: yes.
Dyed your hair: yes.

LAYER 7: HAVE YOU EVER.
Played a stripping game: LMAO yes
Kissed the same sex: Yes
Got beaten up: No
Changed who you were to fit in: Yes, but fuck it i only live once so I'ma be what i set out to be

LAYER 8: GETTING OLD.
Age you’re hoping to be married by: whenever i know i'm in love
Number of kids you’re planning on having: 2

LAYER 9: IN A GIRL/GUY.
Best eye color: blue
Hair color: blond/brown
Short or long hair: shaggy
Fat or fit: Average/fit
Looks or personality: i would love both :)
Fun or serious: Both

LAYER 10: WHAT WERE YOU DOING.
1 MINUTE AGO: thinking about how hungry i am
1 HOUR AGO: peeing
1 WEEK AGO: chilling by myself
1 YEAR AGO: probably hanging out with sarah

LAYER 11: FINISH THE SENTENCE.
I feel: hungry
I hate: features on my body
I hide: my face when I'm crying
I need: money
I love: neon colors.

LAYER 12: FAVORITES.
Band/Singers: forever the sickest kids, all american rejects
Color: Barney purple, Sky blue
Food: chicken(L)
Thing to do: kiss my boy(L)

LAYER 13: RANDOM.
How long have you known your best friend?: less than a two years
When’s the last time you kissed someone?: wednesday
What’s your middle name?: kimberly
What are you excited for?: birthday
Do you have any saved texts on your phone?: yes i do
What’s something random about you?: i like finding photos that express myself.

damage is done

secret confession : i wish i didn't have the feel or need to impress someone all the time, or to look pretty and sit there and be dumb, i wish i had the balls to go out to the movies in sweats no make up on and a baggy t. I wish i couldn't give a fuck about what people thought about me, whether I'm tall, skinny, fat, short, ugly, pretty. I wish i didn't have to worry about anything about the way i looked. I wish people never called me beautiful, or pretty, or ugly. I wish mirrors didn't exist so we don't have to see what we look like 24/7 . ramble ramble rage vent ramble rage vent.

secret confession 2: i wish i never was on the vurge of crying in cute movies, i always picture myself in their shoes and i know some movies are not based on a true story but it does happen in real life other than the happily ever after part. Hannah montana movie you suck for making me have tears in my eyes.

babe

I wish today never happened, i wish i could wake up all over again and re-do everything. I wish i never called you and made you want me to call you. I wish we never fought as much as we fought. I can only wish so many things, but if i had one wish it would be to have no wishes at all. You never loved me, cared for me or missed me. Your a faker, a phony, a liar, a cheater and so many much more things i could name right about now. You fucked with my feelings, and knowing that that's all you wanted fucking kills me inside. SO fuck your feelings, all i ever wanted to do was make you happy with or without me. guess your without me now and you're doing fine, not like you show that your hurt or anything even though you pretend you are. Your just a poisioned apple that my mom told me about a billion times and i kept going in to bite it, and when i finally bit it.. i forever sleep now until my prince charming goes and kisses me upon my lips. Something you will never understand, something you will never do because you do not understand the meaning of love. You only understand the meaning of f u c k. Either " let's fuck" or " fuck you" to anything that moves. I know you could care less about me, and that's what hurts inside. But to grow up and mature, is to let the ones you once loved behind. You were the thing i most cared about. guess it's over now babe.
guess forever doesn't exist if were not together, even though your forever tattooed across my pretty little demented heart.
i do love you, as much as you hurt me. As much as you've thrown me around and broken me into two.. i do love you after all this. Always have.. always will.
xo

MY FACE IS BREAKING OUT :@

Last thing i need is my fucking face breaking out, ftw

pictures

First image clearly doesn't even look like me and i'm so frustrated right now because my face is breaking out like i don't need you to break out face, break back in. Second of all, i eat nutella out of the jar no biggie. Thirdly i got money and i don't know what i wanna spend it on right now. I think i might just save it for when it comes time to spending it on the thing that i know i will. A dress and a ticket to go to the party if im allowed and my friend is allowed HOLLA im out.

living proof i give the middle finger way to much

You know that saying " if you have nothing nice to say don't say it at all"
id just be like alright i will show it, and give the fingerrrrrrrr