we can all dream of a good life, the movies, music the media can all sell us this bullshit and try to make us suvive off of it, make us dream, make us wish. Everyone has problems, makes mistakes and i guess were not use to it but we decide to push the person 10 more feet into the ground and join in because everyone else is doing it. I just want to find the person who's there helping you, dig yourself out instead of sitting there judging you. I want a person, who has been in my shoes, who has been where i've been, who has cried the tears i've cried, who's spoke the words i spoke, who bleeds the way i bleed and just speak up and just say a couple words sayig " i'm here for you, and no one is going to change that" does anyone in the world exsist like that? or is everyone just fake and fending for themseleves? because i've come to realize you can't trust anyone, starting today i'm not telling anyone any of my problems because not only does it make it worse, it makes it a disaster and it gets bigger. These people make your problems bigger, center of attention and even call you selfish if you cry and complain about it? How are we selfish? When your the one who is sitting there putting it in the middle and making it the heart of all our problems? Your just sitting there pretending to be someone your not and i can see right through you, i can see right through all your friends too. Highschool was going good for me until i made a mistake and then everyone started attacking me, are you that pathetic to keep driving me into the ground? OR you haven't amused yourself enough? Your insecure about the way you look and the way you act, i see where your taking this. To the hell with you and all your friends, i thought you were someone but i guess something made me wake up and realize your just bullshit. I see why your making my problems center of attention, because you dont want your problems to be there, and you think im selfish? I hear all the shit that you've done and it's ten times worse than me. No more trust, no more..
I'm not trusting anyone but myself, January 4th 2010 starting today.
FUCK the rest, i only role with my fucking self.
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