friendship

What we use to have, you remember this? This is when we thought we had eachother, but then again we lost eachother. We both turned our backs and now we never talk to eachother. People say things happen for a reason, and they do. You go through so many "friends" to find the truth. I look for the true, and the real because i would know they would be there and listen to me explain how i feel. I know that i'm missing you and i hope you miss me too, but people say you don't i sit here hoping that isn't true, we both made regrets and so many mistakes and we put our friendship out on the line, just hope this time you treat people right and don't loose the battle and fight.
I apologize for my actions and what I did to you,

Highschool is like a drug, it's bad for you
and it changes you and your whole life, so many people had their lives turned upside down and you just have to stay strong and turn it back around. You will loose friends, but those are the ones that arn't good for you and haven't been there for you all along, yup you think they were there for you? oops you better think that one through :S Only the true stay by your side through thick and thin because they hope what they give is what they get back. Stay true to you and your friends, the ones that are gonna be real towards you

Can you become fat off of tea? cause i'm drinking like a big jug full of it :| lmao watch me not go to bed until 5 am today. Well, anyways 2 day count down my birthday. I know i may not feel like i'm changing but guess what 2 more years of fucking pitty highschool! yayyyyyyy
k night <333

waste of time waste of breath

When someone asks you if your ok, you really want to know how i respond. I respond " i'm better than ok, but it doesn't matter because in 2 minutes you'll be off doing another thing. What's the point of asking, what's the point of 'pretending' on caring about how i feel anyways, so don't ask me if i'm ok. Cause i'm better than ok, i'm splendid"
It's true, you won't care about it in the next five minutes of your life so what's the point of telling you? what was even the point of asking? oh right, you want more people to think you care, aw cute. Cause i see clearly now that you don't care whatsoever, just helping your wittle rep have a boost up. No, i won't help you.
Stop pretending cause i already see right through you, so you can stop right about now.
k thannnnnnnnnks

Karma

Cause all of the things i did for you, to save our friendship doesn't mean anything because of who you are and how small of a heart you have. Your stubborn and eventually my whole life story will turn around on you, your next. Yes karmas a bitch i know cause i suffured the death of karma and you're next, good luck you'll need it because it will hit your harder than it will ever hit me. Just don't come running to me, because i won't take your fake ass personality and how you play pretend with everyone. They might not see the true you but i see right through you because there is no true you. You don't even exsist to me anymore, dead, gone, goodbye. No rebirth for you, unless your the devils child. Oh wait you are. Karma is going to eat you up, and spit you out. I hope you enjoy your fucking good life while it lasts, cause it won't last for long. As soon as you turn around no one is going to be there and when you cry out for help all those people you dissed won't be there for you cause your a fucking bitch. Question yourself now, who's my true friend? Because i bet you anymoney the people you " THINK" are, won't be there at the end of the day. GOODLUCK, you'll need it

Life is what we make it

we can all dream of a good life, the movies, music the media can all sell us this bullshit and try to make us suvive off of it, make us dream, make us wish. Everyone has problems, makes mistakes and i guess were not use to it but we decide to push the person 10 more feet into the ground and join in because everyone else is doing it. I just want to find the person who's there helping you, dig yourself out instead of sitting there judging you. I want a person, who has been in my shoes, who has been where i've been, who has cried the tears i've cried, who's spoke the words i spoke, who bleeds the way i bleed and just speak up and just say a couple words sayig " i'm here for you, and no one is going to change that" does anyone in the world exsist like that? or is everyone just fake and fending for themseleves? because i've come to realize you can't trust anyone, starting today i'm not telling anyone any of my problems because not only does it make it worse, it makes it a disaster and it gets bigger. These people make your problems bigger, center of attention and even call you selfish if you cry and complain about it? How are we selfish? When your the one who is sitting there putting it in the middle and making it the heart of all our problems? Your just sitting there pretending to be someone your not and i can see right through you, i can see right through all your friends too. Highschool was going good for me until i made a mistake and then everyone started attacking me, are you that pathetic to keep driving me into the ground? OR you haven't amused yourself enough? Your insecure about the way you look and the way you act, i see where your taking this. To the hell with you and all your friends, i thought you were someone but i guess something made me wake up and realize your just bullshit. I see why your making my problems center of attention, because you dont want your problems to be there, and you think im selfish? I hear all the shit that you've done and it's ten times worse than me. No more trust, no more..
I'm not trusting anyone but myself, January 4th 2010 starting today.
FUCK the rest, i only role with my fucking self.