move back please.

You took me from my life, I feel like i'm living in a nightmare i don't even bother getting comfy with people anymore because every time i'm happy with my life, some one has to rip me from my happiness, no big MY feelings don't count, nobody gives a fuck so why the fuck should i give a fuck about how you fucking feel?
I had a good life, i had friends who would hang out with me at school and after school if we asked to chill. I had a bus pass to take me anywhere i wanted like my boy friends house, the mall or the movies. Now i can't go shit any where because there is nothing to do in this shit town, fun fucking life right? i fucking hate you right now and i don't think i can ever forgive you for doing this to me.
my school is fucked up
my relationships with friends is fucked up.
i care,
you don't

Fuck my happiness.


I miss my old life, my old house, my friends, my boyfriend.
i miss waking up and taking the city bus in the morning
i miss taking the bus after school
i miss school
i miss going to my boyfriends house every weekend
i miss being able to be independent and not depending on you driving me every where,
i miss being happy.


depressed is what i should be, because every time i do get happy, OH LOOK LETS FUCKING MOVE BECAUSE NICOLES FUCKING HAPPY.

d e p r e s s i o n.
i need help.
i need to talk to someone.
i need to let my anger out.
i need to move back, before i hurt more.
i need to get out of this place.
please please please, let's move back..

i can feel your heart beat

birthday wish list;

* Trageus piercing, or top ear.
* My lip pierced, or my tongue pierced.
* My nails done
* New underwear and Bras
* Money
* Camera


I know i won't really get any of this, but a girl can wish for things.

just 70 more hours until i'm in your arms again,
kissing you,
telling you how much i love you and i love you to your face,
hugging you,
smiling at you,
laughing with you,
playing with your hair which you love,
i can't wait to see you babe<3

I miss my old school, why do i always have to move, why can't i have a normal life? why can't i stay at one school, be happy with friends and graduate? Now i live in a shit town, with a shit life, the only thing good about it is my boyfriend is actually staying with me, i love you so much.
CAN I PLEASE MOVE BACK, i hate change :(
i miss how everything use to be, i miss taking the buses to you, i miss taking the bus to school and after school, i miss hanging with friends and being silly, i miss having to walk outside and seeing your face, i miss everything why can't i reverse time and stop the negative things :(

Love happens, it is so incredibly messy. People around you can't comprehend why you do the things you do, or why you fight so hard for something that seems to cause you so much pain, because simply, they can't see. They can't see the invisible ring of insanity that surrounds you when you're in love. It's inconvenient and painful and devasting at times but we can't live without it. What you don't learn is how hard love is, how much work it takes, how much of ourselves we have to put into it, how it isn't worht it until we are complete and utter idiots about it.

Love isn't her calming you down, when you yell. It's her yelling just as loud , just as hard, right back at you, right in your face to wake you up and keep you grounded.

It's right after a long fight that drains the life and bones right out of you both, and yet her showing up at your door the next morning anyways, it's not her saying all the right things or knowing exactly how to handle you, so no, it's not her caressing your hair and telling you everything is going to be okay. it's her standing there admitting she's just as scared as you are.

andrew landon

Do you just use me, as in to call me your girl? Because if you do that, i don't want to waste my time on someone who doesn't even love me. You say, don't talk to guys, don't even look at them. I don't. You write in a message, i miss you with a heart. Oh alright there buddy. AND SOME GIRL writes on your wall jtm, i love you reallyod. HEART WERECKED. i have one more thing to say, good bye......... forever

suck it

money money money

Hi there, i just want everything.

; nose hoop - 25 $
; double nostril - 25 $ + 10 = 35 $
; lip 50 $
; trageus 40 $
; cartilage 60 $


; shirts $ 75
; shoes $ 100

total - 385 !

well it's not a lot, but like half the things are piercings and piercings are expensive.. goodbye money.
First pay check i get, bye!